I needed this...its been rough these last couple of days! Everyday I realize how much God is testing me and trust me with the job I have, it's an everyday test lol. I love knowing that everyday is blessing is disguise, that although God has not opened up the doors I want, I know eventually he will, and until than I will praise him in the hallway. I've learned that I must always look at situations in a positive manner rather than seeing only the negative. Although I will say, it's much harder said than done. I cant lie, I see things on the negative side first, and then check myself and realize that there is always a better way to look at each situation. I've realized that every strong person has a breaking point, that no matter how strong you try to be, at some point you become weak, even if it's for a few minutes your life.
In my case, I know that its perfectly ok for me to have a break down, cry my eyes out because things are not how I ever pictured them to be. It's ok for me to let all my emotions, blast my music, write away and yell if I need to. I've learned that my breakdowns are a boost of energy for me, once it's all out, I'm recharged and ready for another day. I know that in order for me to feel better I need that breakdown. Sometimes we ourselves take on too much and we drain ourselves emotionally and physically. Learn to read yourself, learn to read your own body language and attitude. Never be afraid to fall apart, take it as an opportunity to rebuild yourself. I now know that there is no way you can move forward in life without forgiving, not looking at the past, giving without expecting, and simply letting go of everything that is hurting your heart and soul.
LET YOUR TEARS, WATER THE SEEDS OF YOUR HAPPINESS <3